Day 36 Week 5

  OH MY GOD WHY DO I SUCK AT THIS? I am soo sorry guys, I suck at this keep up game now that school (damned school) started getting...school-y.
  I had my first official post-op appointment with Dr. Ellis on Wednesday. SHe took off my surgical hooks!!! Yay!!! And she said she put my "finishing wire" in! Now she said like 6 months. (why can I not catch a break in this industry?) I hope she's one of those lower the expectations,expect this but it could really be this, but I don;t wanna get your hopes up unless its actually this. I don't know if that makes any sense at all but I'm on some meds so... Anyways. Ok so I got home and curled up into a ball because, I hurt like HELL!!! AHHH I had to sleep upright again.  So much pain my mother drugged me up the next morning and sent me to school. I was soo out of it I could do some of my work but I was zoned for quite a bit. Anyways, again, Still numb in few parts and screws hurt the most when I wake up.
  UHm food, sucks but I'm finding my toungue is super man of tongues. I can mush cupcakes and rolls and muffins so life is allot better. But what REALLY makes me feel human I think you all will be able to achieve this, NUTRAGRAIN BARS!!!!! We just bought a box thinking mushed fruit I could at least eat the inside, maybe the soft shell part. And  I tell you now, OH MY GOD if you like them GET THEM probably not the first few weeks but at 3 or 4 weeks do it, cause thats when I could mush more. Like I can now mush Reese's cups. MMMMM I will make a list/post soon maybe once I can eat real foods of what I ate when I ate it and the products. I have an appointment in 2 weeks, and I know he's going to say I can chew, he told me thats what he's going to say. What's really killing me though, is it's supposed to be next week but he's not in the office next week! SO I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER WEEK!!!!!!! I don't wanna go behind his back cause he said 6 weeks but I just really want the Ok from him he is like ruler over all this and I am A OK with that!!!. I don't wanna mess anything up, so I wait as time ticks ever so slowly. For an extra 7 full days. Oh well. Jiff to-go works well in my lunch, easy to eat (now, not 2 weeks ago) and high protein too. :) Nutella in a little jar too, MMMM. Still ice-cream, mac and cheese, risotto, and pasta-rice dishes, soup, mushy fruits, yogurt, mashed potatoes. ANd Nurtagrain bars, Guys I eat like 3 a day. And no shame.  NOTE: I am not chewing I have a Super-Man tongue for mushing against the roof of my mouth. Uhm, yeah I hope this covers allot since I've missed soo much. Again I am soooo sorry. :(

Glad to see everyone's doing well for the most part!!! I love you all!!!



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Niki :)

Goodness Gracious

  Surgery is tomorrow.

  Weird, but exciting. In all honesty I'm more nervous than I'd like to admit, but I  hear that's normal. I have my surgical hooks/meeting with my new orthodontist/final meeting with Dr. T today at 11, I live an hour away from the office, but I go to school in that same city so travel time is no big deal. Now tomorrow, if I have to be there at 5am travel time will be a big deal. Hahaha, all for the cause though. Ok, something that's befuddling me: I keep having dreams about the surgery, not like nightmares, or happy fluffy clouds and cats dreams, weird crazy dreams. Like the other night, my dream was I was in the pre-op room and the nurses told me "don't sneeze or you will ruin everything." pretty sure they made me sign a waver too. I woke up and laughed.  It was odd, and by the way I told my mom about it, and she said I can't literally sneeze whilst under the anesthesia (she is a nurse herself). Hopefully this gave you guys a giggle. Did anyone else have this happen to them, any crazy dreams?

  Anyways I will probably post again tonight, worried and freaked out. You might even get the low down on what happens to be in my brain; I'm a bottler, and I know that it is extremely bad for your sanity, so hopefully this blog can help with that.


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Niki  :)