Saturday, September 24, 2011

7 Weeks!! And today is day 50!

I hope I'm right on the math. :\ please correct me if I'm wrong!

But more importantly I GET TO EAT!!!!!! And like no restriction at all ( clearly I have to be reasonable and like no hard candies ) But I asked him what CAN'T I eat. He said: You can eat absolutely anything you want. WHAT?!?!?!?! CRAZY. This was a huge deal I almost got up and hugged him!  I was sooo excited both my mom and he chuckled a little bit at me.

Guys, yesterday was soooo great but also a little weird. So we had the appointment and I got pictures for Dr. S and his power point on me hahah, he showed it to us before I had surgery so I feel special haha. Then the nurse did all my like vitals and things and med run down, height, weight, things like that. Then Dr. T came in and we chatted and he was soo happy with the way things were then cleared me for EVERYTHING. Then we said bye, and went to the front desk to schedule our appointment. They said we didn't need to. This made me a bit sad. They introduced us to Ms. A the scheduler and we hugged her and thanked her for everything she had done for us. I wanted to go back in and hug Dr. T and Dr. S too. But I knew they were super busy back there. I mean I go back in 2 weeks for ortho, and its at the same office so hopefully I get to see them a few more times. But it dawned on me if I was at the old orthodontist, we might not ever see them again. So I'm super thankful the way things turned out, I look back and see the troubles we had previously all the tears and anger I had from the other guys- I was (am) grateful for that happening and the way things turned out because with out that I wouldn't be where I am today. With a Phenomenal Surgeon, Wondrous Staff workers, and a well-rounded and Magnificent Team of people working along my side to get me to this place I am today. I cannot imagine not having this surgery, and not going through it with the team of people I had with me. I would do this all over again in a heart beat, maybe sounds a little crazy; but for what I've gained and the people I've met-absolutely.

Have a great weekend everyone! I hope to get my life organized and post more than weekly!

Life's a party, wear the hats!

Niki :)

Thursday, September 15, 2011

6 weeks!

  Yay!!! Sorry guys I'm going to be only able to post weekly from now on. :( I literally have so much work for school it sucks too. One more week and Niki gets to eat!!!! I don't think you guys understand how unfortunate this eating thing has  been for me. Like the other day someone (we are a sharing and swapping group at lunch) offered me cheese its for my pudding! I had to say no and when I got home I cried a little bit, yes I cried. I don't know why this is such a struggle with the food; I look at my face and am happier  than I've ever been but I can't seem to kick the food struggle. My mom keeps saying isn't it worth it though Niki? Well yes mom, absolutely!! but you try to have someone take your super boring pudding you've been eating for the last 6 weeks and offer you your favorite cracker snack!!! BUT YOU HAVE TO SAY NO TO THE DELICIOUS CHEESE ITS AND EAT THE NASTY PUDDING! I am so sorry I just had a little rant. OK I'm done.

  So my numbness- its still the same square, my bottom lip and in my chin area. But here's something to think about: half of that little part (like literally split in half) I can feel hot/cold and small bit of surface. But the other half? Forget about it those guys are still asleep. Teeth are still numb, and my roof of my mouth (surface only). Each morning I'm still getting the wake-up pains from the 6 not-so-friendly screws on the sides. Those pesky little guys better stop soon. Pain  still lingers whenever it wants, it's like its got a key and just walks right in. Doesn't even knock. Anyways, same old same old for the most part. Oh, yes I forgot my little bitty scars on the side ITCH.

  Uhm, I go back in a week for the OK for food!!!!!! HOORAYYY!!! And Ortho appointment then 2 weeks after! woo-hoo! That's really all I got for you all. Oh I'm making a 96 in english! Yay!

  Hope you are all doing well, Fall is coming! Ah its so cute the trees next to our school, they put tree-sweaters on them its quite funny and a bit adorable. I'm just excited because Thanksgiving is coming and that means 1. No school and 2. I WILL BE ABLE TO EAT IT (for the most part) I've always liked Thanksgiving allot though. I like to cook, and bake so a holiday celebrating that is quite wonderful!

  Have a great weekend!

  Life's a party wear the hats (and sweaters!)

  Niki :)

Friday, September 9, 2011

Day 36 Week 5

  OH MY GOD WHY DO I SUCK AT THIS? I am soo sorry guys, I suck at this keep up game now that school (damned school) started
  I had my first official post-op appointment with Dr. Ellis on Wednesday. SHe took off my surgical hooks!!! Yay!!! And she said she put my "finishing wire" in! Now she said like 6 months. (why can I not catch a break in this industry?) I hope she's one of those lower the expectations,expect this but it could really be this, but I don;t wanna get your hopes up unless its actually this. I don't know if that makes any sense at all but I'm on some meds so... Anyways. Ok so I got home and curled up into a ball because, I hurt like HELL!!! AHHH I had to sleep upright again.  So much pain my mother drugged me up the next morning and sent me to school. I was soo out of it I could do some of my work but I was zoned for quite a bit. Anyways, again, Still numb in few parts and screws hurt the most when I wake up.
  UHm food, sucks but I'm finding my toungue is super man of tongues. I can mush cupcakes and rolls and muffins so life is allot better. But what REALLY makes me feel human I think you all will be able to achieve this, NUTRAGRAIN BARS!!!!! We just bought a box thinking mushed fruit I could at least eat the inside, maybe the soft shell part. And  I tell you now, OH MY GOD if you like them GET THEM probably not the first few weeks but at 3 or 4 weeks do it, cause thats when I could mush more. Like I can now mush Reese's cups. MMMMM I will make a list/post soon maybe once I can eat real foods of what I ate when I ate it and the products. I have an appointment in 2 weeks, and I know he's going to say I can chew, he told me thats what he's going to say. What's really killing me though, is it's supposed to be next week but he's not in the office next week! SO I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER WEEK!!!!!!! I don't wanna go behind his back cause he said 6 weeks but I just really want the Ok from him he is like ruler over all this and I am A OK with that!!!. I don't wanna mess anything up, so I wait as time ticks ever so slowly. For an extra 7 full days. Oh well. Jiff to-go works well in my lunch, easy to eat (now, not 2 weeks ago) and high protein too. :) Nutella in a little jar too, MMMM. Still ice-cream, mac and cheese, risotto, and pasta-rice dishes, soup, mushy fruits, yogurt, mashed potatoes. ANd Nurtagrain bars, Guys I eat like 3 a day. And no shame.  NOTE: I am not chewing I have a Super-Man tongue for mushing against the roof of my mouth. Uhm, yeah I hope this covers allot since I've missed soo much. Again I am soooo sorry. :(

Glad to see everyone's doing well for the most part!!! I love you all!!!

Life's a party, wear the hats

Niki :)

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Day 28 or 4 Weeks

  Which ever you prefer, call it so. And it's here.  I still can't tell some days if this has been a fast 4 weeks, or a slow 28 days. Guessing a mix of both. Anyways, I'm just glad I'm not sick anymore, however I have an appointment tomorrow so missing class is inevitable. But its my birthday tomorrow, so I'm at the point where it doesn't even matter. I don't care. (it helps that I'm missing physics and I have a shitty teacher, hooray for me) UHG I don't like the questions I'm getting  from my family "where do you want to go for your birthday dinner?" they all say with smug grins. It really just upsets me. Clearly, the food is my hardest challenge, and as progressed as (I think) I am, I'm not going to be given any chewing clearing. Birthday Girl, or no Birthday Girl.

 I have convinced my mom to take me to Starbucks after the appointment ( I know he'll at least clear me for straws, right?) and I will  be getting a venti caramel frappuccino with extra caramel. Awful I know, but if I cant eat anything, I'l be drinking a days worth of calories in... I'll give myself 30 minutes to polish it off. My poor mother. Hahaha, oh well. My Aunt is coming into town! Hooray!!! Not for my birthday, but for a visit. My siblings were supposed to come down for the weekend (and my birthday) but they can't make it. Bummer, its the thought that counts right? Alright, My face hurts, still. But my lip/chin square of numbness, started tingling/itching hooray! Good news right? Ok well, I'm officially off pain killers :( for now...

  I hope everyone has a lovely labor day, and weekend. Sorry this was about my birthday and not about my jaw, I really don't know what else to talk about. I will have more tomorrow since I will know something, I will get all my questions answered this time. I normally forget 2 or 3 or 4. But I will report.

Have a fabulous weekend!

Life's a party, wear the hats
Niki :)